All Poems, Memories, Miracles

Hoda and Her Mother, Gitty: Treasures in a Drawer

 

I was truly glad to host Hoda.

Cousin from Israel.

Whose family made Aliyah years ago.

Whose father brought water to the desert.

Whose parents welcomed us on visits.

With the warmth of the Negev sun.

Hoda traveled far for two weddings.

To renew relationships with relatives.

Agreed to come to my house.

Handed me photos of my family.

Letters I had written.

From her late mother Gitty’s drawer.

Things that had made the trip to Israel.

Many years ago.

Then, in Hoda’s care, back from Israel.

From whence they originated.

I wonder if her mother knew.

Hoda’d return the photos.

Treasures kept in her drawers

for years among the shadows.

An amazing kind of odyssey.

Delivered Gitty to our dinner.

Was it a planned reunion?

By Gitty, miracle spinner?

 

Lynn Benjamin

April 26, 2023

 

 

All Poems, Animals/Insects, Change, Gardens, Miracles

Waking Up from a Trip

 

Waking up from a trip is a challenge.

Each time zone, another dream space.

So, your head is woozy.

Unable to focus.

Catch up with itself.

Till the sun is up.

The day beckons.

You find things you left behind.

Now completed.

Like fields of blooming daffodils.

Purple and white hyacinths.

Hillsides of fig buttercups and lavender squills.

And the mama goose you last saw upon her nest.

Now strutting around the pond.

With her man and four downy hatchlings.

That sight’s enough to rouse me.

Pop open wide my eyes.

Miracle of springtime birth.

Welcome home surprise.

 

Lynn Benjamin

March 22, 2023

    

All Poems, Animals/Insects, Birth, Change, Environment/Mother Earth, For Children, Growth, Hope, Miracles, Natural Beauty, Plants, Seasons, Thank-You

Wonders

 

Wonders, myriad natural miracles pop up every day.

A tree I thought dead outside my window,
overnight reveals royal lavender bells.

A bee finds an open blossom on the lemon tree.

Cicadas  poke through
the ground, thrumming their abdomens.

Honeysuckles and mock oranges infuse
the breeze with perfumes.

Maples launch whirly wigs like kites.

A rainbow arches across the sky after a
devastating storm.

The first pea pod flower flashes white.

Life resurrects itself in green:
moss, fern, ivy.

Colors parade in waves of daffodils, tulips, irises,
azaleas.

Songbirds soar, then dart along the ground
to collect debris.

Springtime air is moist.
It smells of regeneration, birth.

Before this splendor, I am small,
my senses large.

Thank you, Mother Earth,
for slipping me back in time
while exhorting presence.
For generosity as womb,
consolation as tomb.

Lynn Benjamin
May 5, 2021

 

Adult Children, All Poems, Babies, Birth, Birthdays, Family, Holidays, Miracles, Mother Love, Yom Kippur

Miracle

 

Chilly mornings.
Shorter days.
Mums, pumpkins whisper Fall,
certain segue to Winter.
And yet, impaciens, roses, crape myrtle blossoms still abound, refusing to let go.
I wonder what it was like forty-seven years ago
when I gave birth to my first child.
Was it a day like this?
Crisp?
Sunny?
I don’t know.
I, inside a hospital room counting contractions.
Waiting.
Vaguely knowing it was Yom Kippur.
Fasting despite the holiday,
according to medical protocol.
My prayers were for labor to conclude.
For a healthy baby to be born.
For the start of a new journey as a family.
I saw no plants, no trees.
Heard no birds, no insects.
Only smells of alcohol, cleaning wipes.
Buzzes, beeps.
My husband’s voice.
The doctor’s.
And the words inside my head
focusing me,
steadying me until I heard your cry.
Small, fragile, bleating.
My body pulsed, quivered.
Senses awakened.
Spell broken.
Comprehension.
Miracle.

Lynn Benjamin
September 26, 2021

All Poems, Emotions, Food, Holidays, Hope, Humor, Loss, Miracles, Passover, Prose/memoir, Stories

Miracles Do Happen

 

Miracles do happen.
One happened just yesterday.
After searching  in vain for my Passover recipe books, folders.
Two consecutive April holidays rolling by after our move.
Without  my tried, trusted catalogue of dishes.
The absence forcing me to resurrect
old faithfuls from memos, scraps.
To add contemporary cakes, kugels to the menu.
I made do. It’s true.
But, a little melancholy set in each March.
Buying matzo meal and kosher chocolate.
By the second calendar cycle,
I resigned myself to the loss.
Just before relocation to our new house,
I insisted on having a last celebration in the old.
Against realtor’s advice.
So, I had my handwritten instructions and my books.
But, then, poof, they vanished.
Had they been thrown away?
Were they hidden somewhere in a pile?
Had someone eyed and pilfered them?
Or most outlandishly, had a ghost, a suggestion by a neighbor,
snatched them away?
I lamented, groaned, wished for my papers to appear.
But nothing.
Not a sign.
Not a clue.
Until yesterday.
When, crash, bang, the sound of shattering glass.
What wreckage had visited our basement storage room?
But there, in full view, was the box with my reservoir of information as though delivered from on high.
It mattered not that the box was concealed beyond reach.
That all the shelves toppled from outside vibrations of a power washer.
That liqueurs, wines, vinegars fell, smashed.
That the shelving unit severed.
That the room smelled of anise and Malbec.
That guests were arriving soon for dinner amid the disarray.
What mattered were my recipes, and those my mother gave me, surrendered with a thunderous racket.
Becoming applause, ovations to my ears.
A love letter from the universe.
A message.
Never give up hope.

Lynn Benjamin
October 21, 2021

 

All Poems, Animals/Insects, Change, For Children, Growth, Humor, Miracles, Natural Beauty, Plants, Seasons, Stories, Trees

July Confidences

 

I strolled a well-known path.
Whistles, buzzes surrounded me.
Flowers, plants served up trays of color.
Bunnies skipped about.
A fawn drew close enough to penetrate my eyes.
Two blind men hurried by, tapped white canes.
A tree, nestled between spruces and a row of firs,
magically sprouted conical sprigs.
How did I miss this miracle?
Tiny florets, white tinted yellow on the ends.
On tiptoe, I pulled one blossom cluster to my nose,
inhaled the scent.
A hidden perfume.
A secret, so tucked away, its existence tantalized, seduced.
Neighbors began to question my trysts.
I asked each one the name of my blooming friend.
Not a soul knew, but all marveled at its grace, poise.
My rendezvous increased.
My woody mate and I developed a rapport.
One morning, without warning, I heard rustling:
July is my favorite month.
It’s when my flowers come to life.
In shock, I couldn’t find my voice.
Then, I stammered:
I, too, have a fondness for July.
A month, when in fullest flower,
I birthed my youngest son.
I began to wonder.
Is it possible to trade confidences
with a companion rooted to the ground?
Or, is it folly?
I don’t know.
But my body felt weightless, alive, green.

Lynn Benjamin
July 15, 2021

All Poems, Beaches, For Children, Miracles, Natural Beauty, St. Croix, 2022, Trips and Places

Confession

 

I have a confession.
As a being with two legs,
I like to stroll the shore.
No, hug it with my feet.
Though I learned to float,
to move  arms, legs in a pool,
I did it only briefly.
Not liking chlorine.
Nor a wily ocean.
Hence, I locomote on the borders of each.
My preference, a river, stream, cove.
Where I can, at least, observe animals close to shore.
Sponges, crabs, tiny fish that roll in with waves.
Here, in St. Croix, I pace the water’s edge.
Admiring conches, seaweed, antics of herons, plovers.
The water, transparent, warm, arouses temptation.
But, I wade only to my knees.
Avoid the rough coral against bare feet.
Sea urchin stings.
But even without snorkeling or scuba gear,
sometimes a surprise awaits.
Like the drifting auburn leaf.
Not a leaf at all.
Miraculously revealing itself.
Inflating its breathing body into five points.
A star.
Living umbrella from depths, escapee.
Without any warning, she gazed at me.
Noted my spirit on land, carefree.
While her preference, the salty sea.
Mysterious curiosity.

Lynn Benjamin

January 22, 2022

Adult Children, All Poems, Chanukah, Family, Holidays, Miracles, Stories

Day of Three Wonders

 

Chanukah is a holiday of inspiration.
Reminding us that miracles happen.
That the world can be wondrous.
If we open our senses.
Invite the extraordinary.
Despite the chill, overcast sky,
I count three wonders today.
The linden tree, now bare,
lodging hundreds of small black leaves with wings.
Starlings, silhouettes against gray clouds.
The second, a bright spot of yellow.
A maple tree holding tight its foliage.
Candles illuminating the gloom.
And finally, the appearance of Buttercup, a van.
Inside,  Zev, our son.
After two years.
The bell ringing.
Nine fifteen.
Door opening.
There he stands.
Framed.
Hugs.
I’m curious.
Does he regard this visit a wonder, too?

Lynn Benjamin
November 30, 2021

Adult Children, All Poems, Birth, Chanukah, Emotions, Family, Grandchildren, Health/Illness, Holidays, Miracles, Panic, Prose/memoir, Stories

Faraway

 

Have you ever been in that space?
When all is normal till it isn’t?
When you’re going about your routine?
Get an unexpected call?
Starting your heart racing?
Setting off shallow breaths?
Beating away panic?
Giving you a few minutes to swallow the information?
Think?
Decide what to put off?
Change?
You’re not where you just were?
But not yet ready to act?
Somewhere between?
Bereft of time, season?
Alone in the present?
Last night,  one of those moments.
Just settled on the couch.
Watching a comedy.
About to chat with a son.
Light candles with his children.
When my cell across the room chimed.
Did a second son want to light candles, too?
Join our family chat?
No.
He was dropping off his girls at a neighbor’s.
Then driving back to the hospital.
His wife, needing emergency C section.
Earlier than the one scheduled for later in the month.
Could we come?
Of course, no question.
But at the click, I faded.
Drifted faraway.
To-do.
Postpone.
Cancel.
Pack.
Think.
Read texts.
Change hospitals.
Lungs underdeveloped.
Maybe damage.
Shower.
Break spell.
Sleep, or, at least, try.
Drive in the morning.
With our youngest son.
There’s the miracle.
Zev, with us.

Lynn Benjamin
December 3, 2021

All Poems, Anniversaries, Family, Homages, Miracles, Parents

Miracles

For Leatrice and Sam
Mother and Father
Grandmother and Grandfather
On the Occasion of your 56th Wedding Anniversary

Some people think miracles are hard to find.
Hidden in the pages of the Bible.
Or buried with the bones of saints.
Exhumed and preserved on pillows in cathedrals.

Some people think miracles are the magic
of the tooth fairy or Santa Claus.
Or of finding pots of gold at the end of rainbows.

Some people think that miracles abound around us.
A rose’s scent, a snowflake, a dewdrop.
Or a newborn baby, the link that pushes us toward tomorrow.

But thinking miracles is not for me.
Thoughts and miracles make poor batter.
I like to live my miracles.
To feel them deep inside my female self.
A rush, a twinge, a tickle.
A pop, a jar, a peep.
The pungent smell of lemons invading the nostrils with a start.
The jolt of pepper on the tongue.
Raindrops on the skin.

My miracles are muses.
Giving me permission to metabolize a slice of bread.
With all the gustatory pleasure of the finest pastry.
To transport myself from mundane meanders on Mayo Place
to windy, winding promenades along the seacoast of Gijón.

My muses amuse and bemuse.
Encourage me to muse
on the ordinary as if it were sacred.

And so I do, reveling in the miracles of the day-to-day.
Like recovery from illness.
The mewing and mewling of Mother Katz
learning to walk again.
Encircled by supportive teams of gardeners
who tended their most prized flower, an orchid.
Which, by having wilted, offered them a treasure chest of riches.
The opportunity to give back the love of more than a half century.

Together they walked a path from summer to fall to winter.
To the place of new beginning.
A new mews of retirement and quietude.
To mutually enjoy pleasures of daily miracles.
As children’s children blossom and evolve.

With each new day there is potential for a miracle.
A marvelous event that amazes the senses.

Today is no exception.
For we have a miracle of sensuous proportions:
a marriage that has
sung and danced,
spun and twirled
played and teased,
sat and read,
worked and learned,
fought and kissed,
laughed and cried,
wined and dined,
embraced and sowed
an entire clan
in only fifty-six years!

So, together let’s celebrate this marvel,
this marriage, this couple
who have breathed life into a story.
Our story, the stories of our children.
And the stories yet untold.

With love, Lynn
(December 22, 2002 )